you are enough

Oh, college.

These are the days. 

These are the days when I suddenly remember at 9pm on a Saturday that I have an online midterm to take before midnight. 

Finishing said midterm with an (almost) A calls for catharsis in the form of blogging and cake. Tiramisu, to be exact. 

It's October. Wow.

Just like the cool wind that billowed outside today, time is flying by. 

This season brings a sense of excitement for holidays, for a new year and the future. It's all coming so fast. Change is in the air.

In the midst of last minute midterms and mountains of homework I'm reminded how absolutely imperfect I am. Shocker, I know. 

But really… there are many things I wish I could just get a handle on. My room is never clean, my car hardly ever has enough gas, I'm constantly over-sleeping, and now apparently I forget major tests for no reason. 

Is it frustrating? yes. Is it all going to be fine? of course. 

There are moments I long to have it all together. But then I remember that 'having it all together' is not the light at the end of the tunnel. My calling is not to be perfect.

Forgive me for stating the obvious here, but I, we, you, me, everybody has imperfections, all the time. It's not something we grow out of. They are what make us human. Let's come to grips with the fact that sometimes we set up unfair expectations for ourselves all the while elevating other imperfect people to a pedestal of idolization.

Now, I'm all for goals. Motivation is a good thing. Self discipline is invaluable. But let's stop beating ourselves up for not being perfect. When we start comparing ourselves to others, we have to remember who we are and the One who defines that identity. 

You are good enough. It really is okay. Your shortcomings do not define you.

When we loose these chains of insecurity, we can actually experience the freedom and excitement of embracing our weakness. 

When we are no longer afraid of messing up, we can finally reach for our dreams. We can find that there is peace in taking risks. There is beauty in the imperfections.

This song is no longer of defeat, but a song of victory. 

You are enough.